Busier Everyday

I know that i have been so lazy to update this blog of mine lately. But you know what? I suppose to share a lot of things but it isn't the right time yet to reveal. I am very excited nowadays that time is getting closer for me to tell you all how happy i am as days goes by. Though i have some small problems here and there but still i am happy knowing that i will be back in blogging in full force very soon. Plus the fact that it is summer now, my son is more active and wants to explore outside than being stuck here inside the house.

Sometimes he calls me "NO FUN MOMMY" for not being so cooperative of what he wants me to do. Like to play with him you know... Sometimes, there are things that i cannot just do, boy's stuff. He would prefer to play with daddy but unfortunately, daddy has to work every weekdays though so he doesn't have much time to spend with his son to play outside with him. But for now, i am trying to cooperate with his fun games that his minds creates. He is very imaginative boy, he likes to pretend things that are not existed, so i just have to support him from his interests because i believe that he will learn more by keep doing it.

I am quite busy lately, preparing things and being with my small family. Also i am hooked up to this farming game in another website that makes me feel stress free. I just feel so bad that i have been so outdated with the blogging lately, and i want to cope up of what i missed here. I hope i will be able to do that very soon.... And to all my loyal visitors, i would like you all to know that your visits are all deeply appreciated by me, and i cannot thank you enough for keep on visiting my blog although there is no update everyday. But i will try my very best to be back in full force soon as i can... So God bless everyone and have a good weekend!!!

Horrible Nightmare

It is now quarter to 3:00 o'clock in the morning and i am still awake. I went to bed last night late too, it was like past 11:00 o'clock at night. But before i went to bed i phoned my dear mother over in Philippines to check how is she doing. She said she is trying to be better and she feels so scared and worried about her condition especially now that she is just by herself, no one's with her during at night. I got worried too because she needs company and she must have one at least during at night because she might not feel very good so someone could watch over her. I hang up the phone last night with hurt brain, feeling so helpless and depressed once again for my dear mother because i couldn't do such things for her, how i wish i can right at this very moment but how? I am thousand miles away from her and can't just fly back to her right off due to my situation and also financial issue. As you all know that economy has gone down really bad and everybody are affected about it.

I think i fell asleep around midnight. But horrible nightmare woke me up, it was really a very bad dream for me. I was holding my mother while she was having heart attack. I was trying to wake her up and tell her how much i need her, how much we need her, her kids, but no reply. Her eyes were way up to the top and her mouth were wide open, it looked like i am holding her lifeless. My heart dropped, i had mixed thoughts in my dreams. I was totally confused what to do while looking at my mother lifeless in my arms. It was very painful scene for me to look at. And to think that she was in my arms, lifeless.

I woke up with heavy heart and tears in my eyes. I could hardly breath so i got up and went to the bathroom and finish my crying. I have to let it out because i felt so heavy and it's hard for me to breath. I am pretty much sure you all know what i am trying to say here. I lost my daughter almost a year now and it will be too much for me to see another loved one lifeless in my arms again. My mother is not in a very good condition. She supposed to have heart surgery but honestly i have mixed feelings about it. Forget about financial issue, let's say we her kids can afford the million pesos surgery of hers, she will undergo the very risky operation. If she will surpass it, then after that, what? I have searched through internet or some other people who undergone the same surgery that we are considering for my dear mother. Most of them lived only few years after their surgery and passed away.

That's why we her kids are very much worried about her. We need to talk about it if we really need to have her undergo the heart surgery. We loved her so much but we all know that our life isn't eternal, we have our own perfect time to leave in this world because we don't own our life, we just borrowed it and we all know where it's from and who owns it. My sister told me to prepare my heart for our dear mother but i can't seem to tell it to my stubborn brain that i really have to. It isn't very easy but i need to accept the fact that our dear mother is not getting better and better everyday. I so love her so much, she is been a good mother to us, a very wonderful mother, she has done everything for us her children and we all grew up to be respectful and good citizen. I will thank her until the rest of my life for raising us so well. She is one unique person that deserves to be praised forever.

Quick Update

Maybe you guys are wondering now if i am planning to stop this blogging hobby of mine. Well, this i would assure you, i would never stop blogging as possible as i can. I love blogging but there are times that laziness strikes and nothing to brag about. I have a lot of things that is going on lately but it is not the thing that i would announce here in my website so people would know. I am a private kind of person and if i want to keep the certain things for myself, i would do it and especially if it's too personal to talk about over the net. I am sure you guys know what i am talking about. As of now, i am occupied of so many things and even though i haven't blog everyday, still i would like you guys to keep on dropping by here and i will try to get back at you all soon as i can. Just please bear with me as of now if i can't visit you or do your requests here, i will try to update your links or whatever you want me to do soon as i am back in blogging in full force. And i would like to thank you all loyal readers and droppers here, i truly appreciate your presence, Thank you so much!!!

Been So Long

It has been so long since i last updated this website. I have so many things to say but i couldn't find exact words to put here so i can tell you all in just a short message how am i doing lately. As for now i will just tell you real quick that i am doing good and happy being with my dear small family. Got some problems with my family back home but i am glad that my mother got out from the hospital and doing better right now. But still, she needs to be transferred to Cebu for her heart operation so she will be totally well with her heart breathing problem.

Anyway, i am very happy today for it is my very special day today. I was born March 04, 1981 and today is my 28th birthday. I am getting old but i would say i am getting smarter as well. Getting smarter to realize things around me and learn more lessons in life. Especially when we talk about being a wife and a mother to my son. I am very happy because i am celebrating my birthday with my dear loved ones and friends, who's always there for me when times i need them most. I am very happy because i can see that i am getting old with progress, fulfilled and most of all, happily married with my ever beloved husband dearie. I could not ask for anything more, GOD has given me all the blessings more than what i am expecting.

I would like to thank you all to my loyal visitors and readers here in my website that keep on visiting me and looking for some updates here. Finally, i am able to blog about what i am up to lately. I maybe not so much around like i used to but i am still updated of who is keep on peeping here and i want to thank you sincerely for that, i truly appreciate it.... Thank you so much!!!

My Beloved Mother

I have had tough times lately. My niece got sick so bad and good thing that she finally got out from the hospital, she is now better but not totally well. She is still recovering and we are happy about it. But yesterday my sister rushed our mother to the emergency room. She was conscious but very weak when they got there. She said that she felt dizzy for few minutes and almost fell down, good thing the chair beside her caught her, if it didn't she could've fell and things will be worst. I was really surprised when my younger brother chatted with me earlier that they will go back to our hometown because it is emergency, our mother is now in the hospital and fighting with her traitor high blood pressure and her heart problem.

I called my sister earlier and as far as what the doctor said, our mother should be transferred into Cebu which has the bigger hospital that has complete facilities that my mother would need. She will undergo an operation because her heart needs pace maker so she can breath better and if ever she will encounter heart problem again, she won't have difficulty breathing no more because that little machine will help her to breath normally. I cannot do anything right now but to pray hard for her health. I am praying and hoping that i will overcome all these problems i am dealing right now. I know GOD is always here for me and for my loved ones....

What I Am Up To

What's going on co-blogger friends??? I have been so quiet for a long time, am i not? Well, i just had so much things going on lately that even to update my blogs real quick is very difficult for me to do... I so miss blogging but i have no enough time to do all the things at the same time. Anyway, now that i've got a little time, i would like to take this opportunity to thank you all my friends and loyal readers here for keep coming back although i haven't visited you all guys back yet. I will, i am sure to that if i have more extra free time.

Just to let you know what i am up to lately, i am busy quilting and knitting. I have made a lot of scarves already. My friend and i are planning to sell these products that i actually made myself on a very special occasion here soon in our town that is called "PEACH DAY". We are still planning on it, we aren't so sure of our plan yet but who knows? We might do it anyway. I also made cute aprons, and unfortunately i have no photos of these things i mention above yet since i didn't take a picture of them yet. I will show them all to you at my SEWING THATSKIE's blog soon. Also, recently i am busy making the invitation of a baby shower party for my friend. Actually it was her friend who's expecting a baby girl on March but since my friend asked me to help her, i made it for her.

So how about you all guys? What you been up to lately? Hope to hear from you soon, please don't be hesitant to leave your thoughts here, i will be waiting! Thank you!!!

American Idol Season 8

American Idol season 8 had just started last Tuesday and Wednesday. This is my most favorite reality show that i always look forward to watch every year. I just can't resist because i see a lot of people who's aiming to be known someday and will be recognized with their amazing talents. Now the American Idol has their new 4th judge which is a very beautiful woman named KARA DIOGUARDI which is sitting next to Randy in this photo above. I thought that the changes that they are talking about is Ryan Seacrest won't be in this season anymore because i heard that he will takes place the Larry King Show, but i guess not! He is still there and as usual, charming and good looking Ryan!

My friends used to tell me why i don't give a try to audition in American Idol. I can sing alright but not as good as those people that judges chose. I am no match to them. I so love to sing but i don't think i am qualified enough to sing in American Idol. And besides i cannot even dare to imagine myself singing in front of the crowd lols! But anyway, i know my friends are just teasing me though. I wish i can but i don't think that is the right path for me to take. 

Big Help For Her

Paid blogging is not getting any better lately and i am really sad about it because this is the only way i can support my mother's medications and her personal needs. I cannot just depend on Hubby since we have so many bills to pay here in the house. Being a stay home wife and a mother is indeed not an easy job knowing i have a sick mother that i need to think of as well. She cannot work because of her health, she has problematic heart and her blood pressure is always high which is not good for her to work hard and get tired. I worry a lot of things and the most i worry about is this paid blogging. If only i can work outside, but i cannot even dare to think that i would leave my son to a daycare center or to a baby sitter just for me to go to work. Plus the fact that i have to pay for the baby sitter that will take care of my son and i have to gas my car and some other things that it's gonna cost me even more to work outside. In short, it is not worth it, most especially if am going to miss sometime to bond with my son and to my dear husband.
Good thing i found another website that gives me the opportunity to do the blog advertising. I am very happy about it because even for just a little bit amount of money, it still can help me. I can save it and will be a big help for my dear mother's medication i am sure. I am just hoping that there will be more websites that will open their door for me so i can do the get paid to blog. I so love blogging and at the same time i can manage my own time being at home with my family while doing the paid blogging, very convenient and it is easy to do.

Busy As A Bee

I am very busy lately, i cannot even find a little time to post even for a real quick update here. I've got a lot of things that i did and it is needed to be prioritized than blogging. I so missed blogging but obviously i cannot serve two masters at the same time, so i have to do the most important thing than updating my blog. I am totally sorry for those who keep on dropping here, to those who's reading my entries and left some sweet thoughts. I would like you to all know that i truly appreciate your presence here and your awesome words that you left here in my website.

Since we got back from a long trip we dealt with a lot of problems and i need to be with hubby most of the time. It is sad to tell you all that hubby is on a furlough right now and he is worried about his job. I must say that there is a worldwide crisis nowadays, it is not just here in United States of America that are cutting off some work, also in other side of the world. I feel so bad about it and i am just hoping that things will be better this year and the economy will be back to what it is suppose to so the people won't have hard times and not going to deal with financial shortage anymore.

Try Something Fun

I have been hibernated since i got back home. I hardly go outside with friends or with my family especially this time because it is too cold to stay outside and do something. Honestly i am really bored because i want to do something fun outside but i always ended finishing my house works or doing my past times. So hubby told me that he will take me out soon as the spring comes which few more months away from now and i am getting so anxious and excited about it. He told me that we will do something fun outside that he sure will get me interested. He will buy some milsim paintball so we can play at the backyard. I am sure our son would love that too, it is indeed a fun thing to do to play the scenario paintball. At least i have something to look forward to on spring time!